Musings from Osage Acres

if you get a chance - check out www.osageacers.blogspot.com
I stumbled onto her blogspot - but she is dealing with a child with the same blood condition as what jeremiah had. Pray for her and her child. give her the christian encouragement she needs at this time. - steph

This Will Hurt You As Much As It Does Me.

Did your parents ever say that to you? My did constantly - and the more I'm parenting and disciplining, the more I realize that they were telling the truth when they said that. I love my son so much. I want him to make good decisions ...but, just like with us as adults we all make bad choices sometimes in life. Because of that I choose to disipline him when he makes bad choices. It hurts my heart to see him cry and I know down deep that he will turn out to be a fine man - but just like gold is precious - it to has to be refined. My son was "refined" today. I had to disicpline him (paddle) ... I guess I'm blogging about it because I can't talk to my husband about it - he's a work. Any how - my prayer is that I am always seeking God's help in refining my child. Anyone out there have the same feelings? Sometimes I think I love my son so much that it hurts...I guess God did this through his son also - maybe I'll be alright after all.

Temptation

Well hello out there in computer land...Our diet group is doing well so far. All four of the girls lost weight this week! Which brings me to the topic of sucess Vs. temptation.
Why are we so weak as human beings? For some of us its sex, for others its money, for me its food!!! I desire it. Unlike other things however we can't just turn it off - instead we have to modify our thinking about it...Bullony!!! To me that's like telling a pedophile you can look at pictures - just not pictures of kids.
No really this is a serious thing. I am tempted to eat things I shouldn't just about every 5 min. How do I fix my brain to turn off to these temptations?
I know of course the true answer to that GOD - but in my human weakness I continue to be tempted. Does anyone have a word of encouragement for a struggling food addict? I truely feel like Paul...the things I know I should do I don't do, but the things I do I know those are the things I shouldn't be doing... paraphrase of course - none the less we all need help.

My prayer: Please God help us through our temptations in this world. Satisfy our need while fulfilling our role for you while here on this earth. Take us home and satisfy our longing to be with you who will be our forever sustainer and provider of everything we ever needed or desired. Help us to humble our thoughts to you when we are tempted. In Jesus Name-Amen

Anyone Else Out There?

Well, we have started a diet...again! I have to believe I will do my best - but my heart is humbled knowing that usually nothing changes...none the less, I am trying diligently. Concearning a comment to my last post, Yes, anyone may try this with us - the more the better!!! Its not so easy to quit having others pull for you and with you on the same journey.
I started out at 250 plus pounds... join me and others struggling with this disease called weight. Let me know how you are doing in your struggle with this in my comments section.

Wait!!! (Weight)

Is anyone really happy with who they are? I tend to be or have a negative self image. Most of this comes from the fact that I am fat. I have been all my life. Heck, I even had surgury and lost 200lbs. and I'm still FAT!!! I'm so sick of this ruling my life. All I ever want to do is eat. Its who I am, its what I do...I can't wait to get to heaven to be rid of this awful feeling of yuck...here I go eating again. Any how... How many of you struggle with the same thing? I believe myself to be a fun and loving person - except to myself. Please help and give encouragement to me on this matter. I just want to please God in this life - and maybe in the process like my body image too. I've tried dieting! They last about 30min to one day maybe. I just feel like I'm out of control. I know I need to do something... but everytime someone brings it up to me its such a red flag in my head...I'm stuck. HELP ME PLEASE -steph

Campbell Weekend

This weekend we went to camp in Washington, PA with the intention of going to Bethany, WV to tour the Alexander Campbell home site and such. My husband is very much into the Church and anything that is associated with its meager beginnings. I went along because one, my husband was so excited about it, and two, my parent were going to meet us there and go also. Since I don't get to see them as much as I'd like (we live three states away) - I jumped at the opprotunity to go!!! Much to my reasoning, I did learn quite a lot, and the weekend was very much an enjoyable time had by all. My son meet a six year old boy from Friendly, PA whom he thouroughly enjoyed spending time with. My mom had a great time - especially watching the neighbor shower...(I'll leave it at that). I did have to eventually come back to reality and WORK:( However, my mind has told me that I only have 17 days of school left!!!!!
Let me know how your weekend was!!! God Bless All Of You!!! - Steph

My Son

Last night we went home after a day of school. My son had some troubles at school with acting the correct way. So we had this long talk on the way home and he lost his candy privledge for the evening. At home, it was a nice evening so we went outside. My son got his watering can to help me water the "garden". It was fun, then he didn't come back out for a while. I assumed that he got distracted with a game or something else...he came back out wet. I still didn't think to much of it and then my husband came around the corner my son said "don't go look at tempelton". Tempelton is our pet rat...yes I know its hard to believe. Anyhow, my husband went to check on him of course and our son had given tempelton a little, no BIG rain storm. The poor thing was wet and cold. Needless to say trouble was a brewing!!! My husband lost his temper and smashed the watering can and threw it away in front of our son.
Here comes the questions!!! I was raised so differently. He didn't hurt our son, but I could feel the tension between him and his father. I want them with all my heart to have a great relationship...the truth is I think he would have handled it differently if he had more time...we were on our way to Wednesday Night Bible Class (of all things).
I havn't spoke with my husband about this because I know he won't feel he did anything wrong. I don't want this to cause us to fight either.
I just want to raise my son right. The way God would want us to. Any suggestions on how to handle differences in discipline with my husband and I?
I don't want to leave a bad taste in peoples mouth's for my husband. He is a Godly man - I love him greatly.
For ALL have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God.

Attitudes

My life revolves around my house and home and of course my job as a teacher. As a teacher I am faced with many things. Favorites? God warned us against this, and not that I do have favorites but many times there are just some people you confide in and trust more than others. Isn't this the learning process? Recently my feelings were greatly hurt by someone whom I considered a friend. It shook my world - in not trying to show favoritisim I was accused of it. How do we hold individuals accountable with all the doubt in this world? Kids attitudes are difficult!
Speaking of attitudes, I had another student who is being picked on by others because of some "blood blisters" in her neck area. I have to admit that it is somewhat humorus however she was hurt by comments in the process. When will be learn as a nation that our actions produce consequences. I feel sorry for her but really, what can I do? She needs to learn a valuable lesson from this occurance.
As christians how much are we like the world? Is this in itself wrong? How much is to much? How can we influence the world to be like us as christians? Why is life so difficult? Is it really difficult or are we just blowing it out of proportion?

QUESTIONS IN MY HEAD!